A nastier Me

I find that driving in Bangalore can make you a different man. I am beginning to acquire a Mr Hyde personality when I drive.. and thus not very likable. The prime reason is of course the horribly heavy traffic which cramps so much of your living. And along with that is the bad traffic sense that is common across the country.

However, I dont wish to give excuses. I am beginning to dislike myself immensely. I get into fights every now and then, verbal squirmishes.. foul language enters my mouth which I thankfully abstain from uttering generally. Also, I see myself becoming part of the dirt as I abuse and defend myself even when I am in the wrong. I had such a fight yesterday and I felt so terrible after that ! Whats wrong in accepting you are wrong, apologizing and moving on. But no - I fight, receive a few abuses and give some. I resolved not to get into such squabbles yesterday morning.. sigh.. 

I am trying to consciously control myself.. better myself.. trying to smile more as I drive.. play the music I like rather than the radio.. well, something has to be done and I have to do it. I have started today.. lets see whether I am able to sustain..

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